Wednesday, October 20, 2010
On the 20th Day of Halloween
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Thursday, October 7, 2010
Wendy over at Year of the Cats, introduced her readers to her friend 'Envy', yesterday. She shared a story about her mother that 'subdued' her natural muse. I wanted to share a meditation that I practiced to help heal some damage caused to my childhood-self by my maternal grandfather. It's been very helpful and empowering for me.
Close your eyes and picture the moment your mother accused you of copying that story as if your 'current-self' is a 3rd party standing across the room watching the scene between your 'past-mother' and your 'childhood-self'. Include every detail you can remember and freeze the 'frame' right after the moment your past-mother said those ugly words to childhood-you. Approach your mother as your current-self and tell her exactly what you think of her at that moment. Don't hold anything back! Express everything, no matter how ugly it might feel. When you’re done releasing that emotion, tell her that you no longer need her baggage and she (past-mother of that moment) can't be part of your life any more. Once that is done see her walking away and out of the scene.
Now, you have some apologizing to do. When this happened you allowed a part of yourself, your strength and imagination, to be left behind and trapped in that moment. So now, you have to bring her home. Approach your childhood-self. Look her in the eye and apologize to her with all your heart. Tell her how sorry you are that you left her behind. Let her know she is an important part of you and that it is time to come 'home'. This is where is gets difficult, and it may take a few tries to accomplish. Forgive yourself. It's that simple, and that complicated. You allowed this to happen to you and you left a part of your childhood trapped and unprotected, but it's OK now. You deserve to be forgiven. When you can do this, embrace your childhood-self and be whole again.
You will have to repeat this meditation for awhile before it works completely, and it won't be easy. It took me months with guidance, but eventually, I was able to let it go and let the old wounds heal. The good news is, you'll know when it happens and you won't need to go there anymore.
I hope this helps.
Close your eyes and picture the moment your mother accused you of copying that story as if your 'current-self' is a 3rd party standing across the room watching the scene between your 'past-mother' and your 'childhood-self'. Include every detail you can remember and freeze the 'frame' right after the moment your past-mother said those ugly words to childhood-you. Approach your mother as your current-self and tell her exactly what you think of her at that moment. Don't hold anything back! Express everything, no matter how ugly it might feel. When you’re done releasing that emotion, tell her that you no longer need her baggage and she (past-mother of that moment) can't be part of your life any more. Once that is done see her walking away and out of the scene.
Now, you have some apologizing to do. When this happened you allowed a part of yourself, your strength and imagination, to be left behind and trapped in that moment. So now, you have to bring her home. Approach your childhood-self. Look her in the eye and apologize to her with all your heart. Tell her how sorry you are that you left her behind. Let her know she is an important part of you and that it is time to come 'home'. This is where is gets difficult, and it may take a few tries to accomplish. Forgive yourself. It's that simple, and that complicated. You allowed this to happen to you and you left a part of your childhood trapped and unprotected, but it's OK now. You deserve to be forgiven. When you can do this, embrace your childhood-self and be whole again.
You will have to repeat this meditation for awhile before it works completely, and it won't be easy. It took me months with guidance, but eventually, I was able to let it go and let the old wounds heal. The good news is, you'll know when it happens and you won't need to go there anymore.
I hope this helps.
Monday, October 4, 2010
I'm Still Here!!
I'm sorry I haven't been able to post any thing in a month. I can't believe it's been that long. I'm still trying to blog, unfortunately, overtime and migraines have kept all non-essential activites at a stand still. I promise I'll post more later.
Thanks for your patience.
~td
Thanks for your patience.
~td
Monday, September 6, 2010
Thanks to Kallan over at The Secret Life of an American Working Witch, for my first official "referal", and welcome to those of you who have decided to read my posts. Thank you for spending your time with me today.
I was just reading a post from Liz on Lizzie's Logic (http://lizzieslogic.blogspot.com/2010/09/serenity-sunday.html) about writing a gratitude journal. One of the rules is that in every entry you list 5 things you are grateful for, (#5 on her list was fabric softener!). Isn't that a great way to keep yourself in check? I know for myself, I combat stress with sarcastic humor. This can occasionally lean toward the Dark Side, and some times I need a little reminder of the positive things in my life. So here's the 5 things I'm grateful for today:
1.) My husband/best friend (DD)
2.) Our 4 fury youngun's (more on them later)
3.) Having the greatest parents EVER! (No, really!)
4.) My newly evolving, grown-up relationship with my sister
...and in the tradition of Miss Liz....
5.) Indoor plumbing!
So how about you? What are you thankful for today?
I was just reading a post from Liz on Lizzie's Logic (http://lizzieslogic.blogspot.com/2010/09/serenity-sunday.html) about writing a gratitude journal. One of the rules is that in every entry you list 5 things you are grateful for, (#5 on her list was fabric softener!). Isn't that a great way to keep yourself in check? I know for myself, I combat stress with sarcastic humor. This can occasionally lean toward the Dark Side, and some times I need a little reminder of the positive things in my life. So here's the 5 things I'm grateful for today:
1.) My husband/best friend (DD)
2.) Our 4 fury youngun's (more on them later)
3.) Having the greatest parents EVER! (No, really!)
4.) My newly evolving, grown-up relationship with my sister
...and in the tradition of Miss Liz....
5.) Indoor plumbing!
So how about you? What are you thankful for today?
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Aha Moments
You know the ones I'm talking about. When you run across an action or idea that's so simple and profound that you can't believe some one actually had to point it out? That "Aha Moment"? I had one the other day. I was reading a blog post on Charmed I'm Sure, by Miss Sugar, http://dropoutdilettante.blogspot.com/2010/08/i-am-who-i-am-who-i-am-who-i-am.html?zx=18ca2e26f9696a76 and she made the point that, basically, your perspective isn't the only one. Wow! Where's that been all my life?
So, as I sat there, smaking myself on the forehead, I started thinking about all of the places in my life that this applied to. Holly Hannah, there were a lot of them. All those discussions with friends and family; I spent hours solving all the world's problems. What an a$$hat I can be, sometimes.
Well, now for the "learning from my mistakes" portion of our program. How can I apply this revelation to my life? How do I use this to become a better person, a better friend, a better companion? I think I'll simply start by remembering what she said and trying to apply it to as many situations as I can. that should get the ball rolling.
I'll still try and solve the world's problems. I don't think I can help myself. :o
So, as I sat there, smaking myself on the forehead, I started thinking about all of the places in my life that this applied to. Holly Hannah, there were a lot of them. All those discussions with friends and family; I spent hours solving all the world's problems. What an a$$hat I can be, sometimes.
Well, now for the "learning from my mistakes" portion of our program. How can I apply this revelation to my life? How do I use this to become a better person, a better friend, a better companion? I think I'll simply start by remembering what she said and trying to apply it to as many situations as I can. that should get the ball rolling.
I'll still try and solve the world's problems. I don't think I can help myself. :o
Sunday, July 25, 2010
The Birthday Dinner Party
DD and I are hosting a small dinner for my cousin, SS and her husband RS to night. Yummy Italian, and good friends. What more can you ask for? Since DD had to work Saturday, I was stuck with most of the house cleaning and yard work, (It's been over 100 degrees this weekend!), which was hard, but that's OK because he's earning the money. Tonight is also the full moon. I'm going to try another candle for MD's health and recovery.
MD is doing much better in her new (old) rehab facility. Over the past few weeks, she's shown great improvement. Unfortunately, that means she getting a lot crabbier about being in the rehab facility, and about the fact that she's not in charge. I'm so glad she's feeling better, and I'm amazed every day by that woman's strength. this last time, I really thought she wasn't coming home, but she was alert and feeling 75% better within 2 days. That's incredible considering she is 84 and had pneumonia and a urinary tract infection with a white blood cell count of 32000. She is one impressive woman.
I finally got my entire collection of Pagan study notes transferred to Word, including my current project, the Gilded Tarot deck. I've gotten through the 1st 3 suits and am currently working through the Pentacles and will start on the major arcana next.
GD seems to have worked through most of her trust issues with LD. After the Incident, I wasn't sure we'd ever get back to a relaxed pack, but I'm hopeful again.
Blessed Be.
MD is doing much better in her new (old) rehab facility. Over the past few weeks, she's shown great improvement. Unfortunately, that means she getting a lot crabbier about being in the rehab facility, and about the fact that she's not in charge. I'm so glad she's feeling better, and I'm amazed every day by that woman's strength. this last time, I really thought she wasn't coming home, but she was alert and feeling 75% better within 2 days. That's incredible considering she is 84 and had pneumonia and a urinary tract infection with a white blood cell count of 32000. She is one impressive woman.
I finally got my entire collection of Pagan study notes transferred to Word, including my current project, the Gilded Tarot deck. I've gotten through the 1st 3 suits and am currently working through the Pentacles and will start on the major arcana next.
GD seems to have worked through most of her trust issues with LD. After the Incident, I wasn't sure we'd ever get back to a relaxed pack, but I'm hopeful again.
Blessed Be.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
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